Struggling

It has been over a month since I have written last, yikes! So many changes have taken place since I've written last. To make a long story short, I am struggling with my training program right now!

With the combination of about a 10 lb weight gain, my clothes not fitting comfortably, and just feeling unfeminine (starting to notice veins in my biceps), this program is really playing games with my head. The only place I feel like myself is at the gym. When I'm in the gym, working out and seeing strength gains and increased muscle size, I get so excited and look forward to the competition. But when I'm out of the gym, in my street clothes that  are much too tight, I ask myself: "why am I doing this again?" or "there is no way I will ever do another competition again." As my Mom puts it, I look like "a tight little sausage." Never something I ever wanted to hear.

Among this, I have been "unhealthy" so to speak since the last time I wrote. I have had a few set backs by finding out I have hypothyroidism, which means my thyroid levels are lower than normal making me twice as tired as I should be just through daily activities. This has made my workouts extremely hard to complete and recover from. I've been on medication for about 2 or 3 weeks now which has helped slightly.

At this time I'm battling a nasty cold that's going on 10 days now. Which means no energy to get to the gym, no energy to push heavy weight, and no energy to recover properly. But I still have to push through it! I have only taken a few days off since we started this program and it's getting harder and harder to get to the gym, but I'm still pushing through.

Even though I've had these setbacks, I've still managed to gain strength and muscle size which is a huge motivation for me. Plus the fun part is right around the corner! Cutting phase begins January 1!

Pictures will be up shortly!